The Biggest Hurdle: Your Brain

The biggest hurdle for me to lose weight was singularly the grey space between my ears. Diet can be on point, exercise regularly, but being in a good mental state was the single most important thing I could do.

As of late, lots of distractions have pushed me off my goals (I feel like I’m saying that a lot) and returned me to bad habits of poor diet and skipping workouts.

The worst thing to do is let it spiral. That’s how I ended up 300+ lbs.

The best thing to do is recognize the problem (stress), solve the problem (easier said than done) and get back on track.  It is a difference to recognize that now, not 20 lbs from now.  And still keeping in mind the goal I have set for July 1.

The importance of recognizing mental health if you have a lot of weight to lose cannot be understated.  There’s a reason I ballooned up to where I was, and while food, drinks, and a sedentary lifestyle contributed to that, they were a vehicle masking a lack of discipline or care.  Once I got that mindset changed, the 5 am workouts and intermittent fasting came pretty damn easy.

Book Review: Zorba The Greek

I regularly listen to a podcast produced by the Hellenic American Leadership Council (HALC), a Greek-American advocacy group, and a recent episode focused on the screening of the new film that chronicles the life of Greek writer Nikos Kazantzakis.

Kazantzakis might be best known here as the author of the book Zorba the Greek, which was later adapted into a film starring Anthony Quinn.

Having seen the film several times, and then learning more about the author, I was intrigued.  Kazantzakis is Cretan, where some of my family is from.  He was nominated for the Nobel Prize in Literature nine times.  Two of his books, Christ Recrucified and The Last Temptation of Christ, drew ire from the Greek Orthodox Church.

He was someone that questioned everything, not neatly falling in line with a simple label, as is such an easy trap to fall into in our world today.  The far right considered him left, the far left considered him right.

But his best known book is Zorba the Greek, titled in its original language as the Life and Times of Alexis Zorba, which follows a young Greek/English writer who has inherited some money, and decides to head to his fathers homeland.  Along the way, he meets a boisterous older gentlemen (Zorba) and brings him along as his foreman for a mine he plans to open.

Ill save the details of the book, because A – you should read it and B – you can find that online.

What really captures the magic and quality of Kazantzakis writing is an ability to weave a story that so mirror everyday human thoughts and fears.  What is your purpose?  What is the meaning of life?  What do you hold on to, or what do you let go of?  Where do you, as an individual, draw the line on your humanity?

But most importantly, my interpretation of this particular book is the push/pull of what you are obligated to do versus what you want to do might be the strongest overarching theme.

Constantly, the author and Zorba are in situations where the internal struggle of maintaining status quo or throwing caution to the wind are pondered and discussed deeply.

What are you holding on to?  What is most important?  When it comes down to life and death, as it did many times throughout the book, is life a linear march from birth to death?  Or, is there more you can achieve/pursue with this short time we have on this earth?

If you can’t tell, I loved this book, and it quickly moved into one of my favorite books I’ve ever read.  My only regret is not reading it sooner, but after this, more Kazantzakis books will be making it to my reading list.

I’d recommend this version, translated from Greek:  Zorba The Greek.  This new translation is helped by directly translating from Greek, where the original English book was translated from Greek to French, then to English.  (Fun side note – the Cretan dialect of Greek threw the translator for a loop, and had to hunt to fund several hundred words that appeared no where else but in Kazantzakis writings!)

One final note on the book; consider a theme of hope from this book, then put that in context that this was written during the height of the Nazi occupation of Greece during WWII.  For Greece, while putting up a valiant fight, citizens were starving, villages were wiped out in retribution, and hope was at a low, but here still do we have literary excellence that can summon light.

How To Fail At A Goal

Goal setting is one of the most important things I do, and I recommend everyone set goals. From lofty planning to simple day to say, I write down my goals to help stay focused on the tasks I need to complete them.

In the process of losing 70 pounds, I’ve set countless goals. Lose “X” amount of pounds this month/week/before…

And I’ve failed at a ton of them. Some too ambitious. Some poor planning. Some poor execution.

In fact, the only goal I think I did hit on the marker was to lose 50 lbs before I left for Greece. Starting in January of 2017, I set out to make sure that I was 50 lbs lighter by the time I made it to Greece.

It wasn’t easy, but I did it, with a strong last push.

Earlier this year, I set a goal that I would get down to 200 lbs by June 1st.  The was always my goal weight to hit, but I’ve slowed down, not taken it seriously, eaten poorly.  When our gym had us fill out goal cards, I was so confident In February that I could lose 20 more pounds, I actually wrote that out publicly.

Fast forward to May 10th, and Im sitting at…220 pounds.  I know I’m not going to hit that goal.  That sucks.

But that’s also my fault, and I know that.  I know I didn’t eat well (terribly actually). I know I’ve had additional stress at work.  Knowing that and saying it out loud helps me realize exactly what I did wrong, and motivates me to not fail again.

I’ve failed at this goal, but its an opportunity to set another one!  200 by July 1?

The Final Push

I’ll be frank that I’m not quite sure where I’m going with the blog, but one theme you’ll get is that weight loss/working out is something that is a new part of my life.

When I originally started (this time) I weighed 304.8 lbs. From April to December of 2016, I half-assed my workouts and eating, and started January 1st of 2017 at 293 lbs.

Since then, I’m down to 220 lbs. But my original goal has always been 200 lbs.

Along the way I’ve had different motivating factors; birth of my daughter, trip to Greece/Italy, friendly bets.

But now with the finish line in sight, I need more motivation.

I figured a good way to do that was document what/why/how I’m working down to 200 and share that.

In the interest of full disclosure, this last Friday morning I was at 219 lbs. Then certain stressors and poor decisions this weekend bumped me up to 226 lbs.

As of this morning, back down to 223, and I know that with a couple days of workouts and smart eating I’ll get back to 219/220. My goal is that to happen before the weekend.

So enjoy the ride!

Setting The Tone For The Week

With a routine down, I really hate to miss Monday workouts. That Monday morning workout is the best thing I can do to set my intention for the week.

Even after a bad weekend food and drink wise (and believe me, it was bad) I know that if I can drag myself to the gym Monday morning, I’ll be in good shape.

But if work schedules get in the way, as they did today, and I can’t make my regular time, I still have my routine. My routine is to workout on Mondays, and I did.

It’s hard to switch from the point of feeling bad when you do workout to feeling bad when you don’t. When you do get to that point, don’t let it go.

Go workout.

I’m Brining It Back

I’ve had this domain and Web site for now six years, and I’ve varied with the content I’ve used on it.  Some has been to help me try and better my job prospects, some was a long-shot at some MMA writing, and some just to share stories about me.

While that last part is surely not interesting, I needed to brush up on my work with a WordPress site, so I’m playing around with this to better my skills, while also, once again, talking about things that are going on with me, to me, or around me.

I do think its important, and one of my driving motivations, to offer a bit more of a long form companion to my social media posts.  In a day of pure soundbites and quick hitter information meant to get reactions, you’ll see some of the content I tend to gravitate towards and share might need a little more clarification.

So when you see my tweet storm regarding air violations in the Aegean, startup growth in Greece, or workout habits/tidbits, I’ll do my best to explain those more here.